A Link to a Poem Within a Blog

So there’s this amazing writer who is blogging anonymously. No names, no faces.

The poetry and prose – even the rants 12kilroy writes are all lyrical, whimsical, gorgeous, and dark in turns. Nearly every poem makes me exhale in wonder at the end – a sigh of relief that some great and simple truth was found and let loose, leaving me more unburdened and more whole than I was before.

A few weeks ago, I gave Kilroy permission to use a line I came up with.

And I have been upstaged, and I could not be more pleased.

If you don’t follow this blog yet, go do it now.

But make sure to read this if nothing else:

Being Real.

Good Habits are Hard to Break?

I just really needed to share this with someone.

Because I may be a bit mad.

It is 2:30 am.

I had four hours of sleep last night.

I’ve written two novels so far this year, and have only two very short days until I must begin the next one.

So, what am I doing?

I’m awake. Writing more on the novel from January.

Because I missed writing.

My martial arts teacher always says “Good habits are hard to break.”

But seriously…

Two Down, Ten To Go!

Day Twenty-Seven: 50,685 of 50,000 words

Despite getting this month off to a rocky start, and thanks to a mild stomach flu that kept me relatively downed this weekend, I’m done. Done I tell you!

Well, you know, until next month.

In three days.

The disturbing bit is that despite the setbacks this month, I’m feeling like I might be getting the hang of this writing thing. Sure, my house is in a bit of disorder and my workout schedule is wacky, but I was expecting to slowly disintegrate by now. I thought I’d be wondering what on Earth I’ve gotten myself into.

I guess there’s still plenty of time for that though.

Like, ten months. And eleven novels.

This is where I stare blankly at the screen.

Anyway, in the next few days I want to post my daily word counts for both months – demonstrate my daily progress (or non-progress) – and if I’m feeling extra rambunctious, I’ll even see about editing an excerpt from each of them, though that bit might have to wait until the end of next month. We’ll see.

And until next month, I’ll be sleeping. And brushing my cat. And working out. And cleaning my house. And blogging.

Ok, I’ll be sleeping.

Booya

Inspiration #6

Every Sunday, I choose a passage of wisdom from someone who knows better and much more than I do about writing, life, the universe and/or everything.

Share and enjoy!

I found this bit of wisdom on Neil Gaiman’s blog. Since I talk so much about first drafts, I thought we could use a bit of insight into the second draft process.

The second draft is where the fun is. In a first draft, you get to explode. The objective (at least for me) is to get it down on paper, somehow. Battle through the laziness and the not-enough-time and the this-is-rubbish and everything else, and just get it written. Whatever it takes. The second draft is where you go and gather together the fragments of the explosion and figure out what it is you did, and make it look like that was what you always meant to do.

So you write it. Then you put it aside. Not for months, but perhaps for a week or so. Even a few days. Do other things. Then set aside some uninterrupted time to read, and pull it out, and pretend you have never read it before — clear it out of your head, and sit and read it. (I’d suggest you do this on a print-out, so you can scribble on it as you go. )

When you get to the end you should have a much better idea of what it was about than you did when you started. (I knew The Graveyard Book would be about a boy who lived in a graveyard when I started it. I didn’t know that it would be about how we make our families, though: that’s a theme that made itself apparent while the book was being written.)

And then, on the second and subsequent drafts, you do four things. 1) You fix the things that didn’t work as best you can (if you don’t like the climactic Rock City scene in American Gods, trust me, the first draft was so much worse). 2) You reinforce the themes, whether they were there from the beginning or whether they grew like Topsy on the way. You take out the stuff that undercuts those themes. 3) You worry about the title. 4) At some point in the revision process you will probably need to remind yourself that you could keep polishing it infinitely, that perfection is not an attribute of humankind, and really, shouldn’t you get on with the next thing now?

-Neil Gaiman May 11, 2008 

Developing Writing Practice #1: Write or Not

Day Twenty Four: 42,563 of 50,000 words

You’ve got to be willing to waste any time you want to spend being creative.

At least at first.

It’s because we suck at actually valuing the time spent being creative as a society overall. We love the idea of perfect writing, but the time spent on writing it? Who has that? Don’t you need to do laundry? Don’t you need to work out? How about finding a new job!

So creative time is essentially selfish. It’s “wasted”. We’re not making our houses cleaner, our credentials better, our wallets thicker, our loved ones more appreciated. And until that manuscript is off to the editor and we have an advance in our pockets, it’s never going to be easy to explain to our parents why we’re working so hard on “nothing.”

So I say again: in order to be able to find time to write, we must be willing to find time to waste. Otherwise, the more immediately gratifying aspects of the real-world will seduce us away, even if it’s just leveling up in the latest facebook game.

But wasted time can be wasted however you choose without guilt. It was going to be wasted anyway, right? Might as well try writing that book.

Over time, I’ve developed what I call Write-or-Not time. It came from years of writing practice I learned from Writing Down the Bones, and an idea from the book Willpower. In it, they cite a successful author (I’ll check the name) who would sit down for a set amount of time every day, and for that time he could do two things: write, or not write. Nothing else.

I like this idea.

I started using it, and it works. I have kept a steady writing practice for the last six months.

I go to one of several coffee shops in the evening, sometimes on my way home from work. I get a drink and maybe some food, and I can either write or not. It’s how I’ve developed the mental muscle power to do what I’m doing, and it’ll keep me meeting my goals.

If you’re stuck, floundering, wondering why you can’t find time to write? It might be worth a try for you. At the least, it might lead you to your own way of doing things.

My first writing tool to give you is this.

Value your writing time by “wasting” it.

Start practicing write-or-not time. Get everyone used to the fact you’re doing it, too – turn off your phone.

Step one: Get out of the house.

Lots of people work fine at home, but when you’re already reluctant and feeling blocked, just making coffee could lead to cleaning the kitchen and making dinner, and before you know it it’s bedtime and writing didn’t happen today. Oops.

So get out of the house.

Go to a coffee shop or tea parlor or bar. Order a drink. To stay.

Now, you’re stuck there. You must stay at least as long as it takes to finish your drink. If you’re somewhere with free refills, you’re there longer. You’ve also invested money in your writing time now, so you’re going to be more inclined to make it count.

(If you’re really stuck and there’s a piece of cheesecake calling your name from the bake case, you can get it. Even if you’re on a diet. AFTER you’ve written for an hour – this isn’t a time to be above bribery.)

Now, at this point you’re going to get out your writing tools. If you’re extra resistant or out of shape, I recommend a notebook and pen. The internet is everywhere, and Facebook? Twitter? Too tempting. You need basics.

(It’s also worth noting that rockstar writer Neil Gaiman writes all his first drafts by hand. How can he be wrong?)

Get out your notebook and pen. (I like fountain pens with colorful ink because it satisfies my inner child. I write just to make pretty colors happen.)

Set a timer. I recommend an hour, but anything over 20 minutes is acceptable. Less than 20 and you’re being too easy on yourself. And you DID buy a drink right? That should take more than 20 minutes to finish.

(And don’t you want that cheesecake?)

Now, until that timer goes off, you can write, or you can sit there.*

Your choice. If you’re like me and allergic to boredom, you’ll start writing within fifteen minutes.

Congratulations! You’ve finished your first step to valuing your writing time.

If you’ve done nothing by the end of the hour, that’s ok. You’ve still sent a powerful message to yourself – it’s okay to use up time to pursue your dreams.

Your writing time is important. Important enough that you can waste it.

Besides, you’ll be back tomorrow.

*It helps to set aside any lofty writing goals just now; simply be willing to put down whatever words come to mind. Once you’ve developed you writing muscles, you can pick that Great American Novel up again.

A Mad Idea…

So… my boyfriend has found a new way of tormenting me helping me achieve my goals. When I say something important yet perhaps crazy, he takes out his iPhone and records me repeating what I said.

So it’s on the record.

He recorded this idea I had today, so I think I’m stuck with it; I figure might as well make it official, even though it’s a long way off (thank the Gods).

Remember in my About page when I said I’d try to sneak in an extra novel?

Instead of just doing one novel during NaNoWriMo 2012, I’ll do two. One for the usual project, and one for NaNo. 

Because why make things easy, right?

And Boyfriend? You’re a bastard I love you.

Musing Upon Shitty First Drafts

Day Twenty One: 37,279 of 50,000 words

I write fast. And messy. It’s how I’ve learned to do things.

It’s because at heart I’m a classic overthinker; if I don’t get words on the page before I have a chance to analyze what I’m doing, it doesn’t happen. Perfectionism is the middle name of my little editor gremlins. We talked about perfection earlier in this blog, so I won’t backtrack until I have something new to say on that matter…

But my message is this – get it down on the page fast and dirty. Fix it later.

This is what is commonly called a Shitty First Draft.

I know we talk about this a lot as writers. It’s such easy advice to dispense. We tell each other that Earnest Hemingway himself said it: “First drafts are always shit.”

But really, don’t we all think we don’t really need that advice? I mean, surely each individual, if they’re diligent enough and go slowly enough, and are gifted enough, it will all be genius from the start. Right?

We’ve all had that feeling of sitting down and writing a perfect or near-perfect short story. The Muse was in a good mood that day, and gave you a gift. Shouldn’t all writing be like that?

Well, I’m not published. Yet. But if you even wonder how I do this – keep up the word count, write sometimes 10,000 words in a day – if you want to do something similar, you’ve got to let go of your standards and write.

It took me seven NaNoWriMos to figure it out. Last year in the middle of skipping around and following the tangled ball of yarn that my plot was becoming like a kitten on crack-laced catnip, I realized:

Wait… This is how things get written. You fucking write them.

That’s the moment I decided to try the theory out for realz, and this 12 novels project was born.

(As a side note, muses are fickle bitches. One day they help you spin gold from dust motes. The next day they’re cheating on you with the no-talent hack down the hall.)

So you can be assured, each month as I post my word count, it’s all one big Shitty First Draft. Sometimes, I get a few lines of prose I treasure, or a bit of dialogue that makes me squirm in glee. Other times I skip scenes I don’t feel like writing all together, leaving a note like

***Something bad happens. Damon wakes up in a warehouse.***

Because I don’t have time or words to slog through a scene I’m not ready for. Hell, it may not be a pivotal scene anyway. What is necessary is the next chapter, the one that tells what he does after things fall apart, when he has to fight off the vampires and find his way, barefoot and bleeding, back home.

It’s all one big Shitty First Draft.

Stories meander, they give me characters I have to chase around because they change constantly, I write scenes I won’t ever use at all – but every time I write, shitty or not, something valuable, priceless is happening.

Because as if by magic, my sucking is sucking less.

And I’m getting a confidence that when I sit to write – muse or not – I will get more story down on the page. Even if it’s a pained 500 words and I walk away feeling like a zombie and things like that last post happen.

(And I’ll always post my zombie posts, just so you guys know I’m not doing this like it’s pie. It’s not. It’s work.)

So now, my friends. Get your word processors up, put your inner editors to bed, drink a few shots of liquor…

And write shit. Absolute total garbage. You have my blessing.

And if you happen to write something beautiful, creative, imaginative and instantly publishable?

I suppose we can forgive you.

Eventually.

No matter what, it’ll get you where you’re aching to go. I promise.

In Which the Writer Doesn’t Edit This Post

Day Twenty: 34,062 of 50,000 words

Funny thing, this month. When I can blog, my novel isn’t working.

Then when the novel starts to work, I can’t seem to blog.

This one is being squeezed out despite those little perfectionist demons telling me I really ought to talk to the internets only when I have something to say. Beyond making sure my words are spelled correctly, this is all a first draft.

Welcome to my head.

My wide open, empty head.

Seriously, for thoughts I got nothin’. In here, it’s all a big blank if it isn’t about story or wondering over what new person has begun residing in my skin while I’m off taking care of other things. The new person reminds me a lot of the little girl I once was who wanted nothing more than a gauzy pink cannopy bed and unicorns covering every surface of everything.

Maybe she was the one who first came up with the dream of being a writer, and like Sleeping Beauty, she climbed a high tower and wrapped herself in a thicket of thorns until it was safe to awaken.

Who knows. If there’s a shrink in the house, feel free to analyze away. Me? I’m too busy writing.

Inspiration #5

Every Sunday, I choose a passage of wisdom from someone who knows better and much more than I do about writing, life, the universe and/or everything.

Share and enjoy!

Basically, if you want to become a good writer, you need to do three things. Read a lot, listen well and deeply, and write a lot. And don’t think too much. Just enter the heat of words and sounds and colored sensations and keep your pen moving across the page.

If you read good books, when you write, good books will come out of you. Maybe it’s not quite that easy, but if you want to learn something, go to the source. Basho, the great seventeenth-century Haiku master, said, “If you want to know about a tree, go to the tree.” If you want to know poetry, read it, listen to it. Let those patterns and forms be imprinted in you. Don’t step away from poetry to analyze a poem with your logical mind. Enter poetry with your whole body. Dogen, a great Zen master, said, “If you walk in the mist, you get wet.” So just listen, read, and write. Little by little, you will come closer to what you need to say and express it through your voice.

- Natalie Goldberg, from Writing Down the Bones

I Ask You….

Day Eighteen: 28,481 of 50,000 words

I was going to blog tonight, but this damned plot has finally started to put itself together in some semblance of a story – it’s still a bit like a paper maché sculpture dropped in a full bathtub, but I think I can see the shape of things to come. At the very least, I need to give it a fair shake instead of derailing myself to come up with something entertaining, informative, etc.

So.

In the mean time, you tell me:

What writing books or writing advice is absolutely invaluable to you? 

Which bits of inspiration do you turn to over and over again?

Can’t wait to see what you have to share! See you all tomorrow.

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