My Writing Process (with pictures)

Over time, I've often been asked a lot to talk about my writing process – the nuts and bolts of what I do when I sit down to write. And so far, I've resisted doing so, partly because I don't really know if I have a writing process, and partly because its a very self-conscious thing to do, to pay attention as you write and figure out what is it exactly that I do?

So I have been watching, very coyly and indirectly, so as not to frighten myself into doing strange things like starting to smoke a pipe or drink absinthe merely to seem more writerly. And I've been able to piece some of it together.

But I have to clarify that this is not how I *always* write, it's how I write when I feel like writing this way – particularly when I need to feel more professional. In truth, it's probably how I write only 30-50% of the time. I've logged more words and writing hours in the last year flopped on the sofa with a cat next to me and marathons of Buffy the Vampire Slayer in the background than I have at a desk.

So if you want the CliffsNotes version of how I write, here it is:

Choose caffeinated beverage and preferred seating area. Commence writing.

There. If this is enough for you, feel free to go about your day.

Anyone looking more for the full monty, let's keep going.

And by no means should anyone try to replicate my way of doing things. This is what works for me, and everyone is different.

I normally stop on my way home from work at a coffee shop to get in a few hours of uninterrupted writing time before obligations of home (cat, laundry, friends, Netflix) can drag me in and distract me, and I've made a point of posting pictures (like the ones here) of where I'm writing over at the Facebook page if anyone wants to follow along.

Today, I don't particularly feel like getting dressed in real clothing, so I'm working at The Desk at home (more on The Desk another day). I chose a pot of hazelnut black tea, and gathered my tools, which are always nearby in my bag – I select purses for being iPad-and-notebook friendly.

When not at home, I choose a cafe with wi-fi and plenty of comfy seating. I prefer places where people go to study, places with 50¢ refills and quiet music on in the background. Though sometimes, I opt for a moody bar and whisky, if the writing demands it.

I usually start with checking in with the outside world – Facebook, twitter, a cursory glance at my email, sending a text or two I needed to send, maybe returning a quick phone call, just to clear off my to-do list, or to get used to the idea of sitting and working. I'll use this time to play a small game of some kind if I'm feeling reluctant or if my mind is busy from the day. Sometimes I stare at people or out the window. I fidgit, and I daydream, I listen to a song I've been humming all day.

I like to put in my headphones whether I'm at home or out, even if I don't play anything on them. Few things say “don't bother me” in the same way. I generally listen to music to set the mood of my writing. Sometimes I listen to ambient noise of brain wave stuff, or I'll have nothing at all and pretend to work while I take notes on the juicy conversation at the next table.

After maybe twenty minutes, I begin. The caffeine and routine have worked into my system enough and I'm ready. Even if I'm not ready, I get to work. The time I spend working – whether it's a few hours or thirty minutes – is mine, and I do what I want as long as it's toward the ultimate goal of having written, or having expanded my little writing empire online.

Some days I like to start with fountain pens and notebooks. I like to write by hand when I feel an extra reluctance, or when I need to ease into a scene, write lists of things to think about or do, or just to feel the weight of a pen in my hand. Some things need to be hand written first, and others need the clarity of typing them out, the secure feel of consistent font.

Most of the time, I write on my iPad. Ever since I got it last march, it's my favorite thing ever. I keep a notebook at my elbow for quick notes and brain drains while I work, and I write whatever is going to be written that day. Sometimes, like today, it's a blog entry. Other days, I have a flash of insight and want to get to work immediately on a scene or a new idea.

Sometimes it all snaps together like Legos. Sometimes it's like building with old wooden blocks that are warped and rounded at the edges, and I know it's rickety and needs a lot more work. But I have made the shape I want, and at the very least I can build it again out of sturdier stuff.

Sometimes I write snippets from several different scenes, scattered across several files. Sometimes I write one long, contiguous piece, and sometimes I rewrite something that still doesn't feel right to me.

But no matter how it goes, if I've sat down to write, writing gets done. There is no other option.

Generally, I get around 2,000 words done. Sometimes more, rarely less.

Unless I'm trying to reach a monthly goal like last year, I don't worry about how much I do. Some scenes need to be written slowly and with care, they need my full attention on them like a friend in crisis. Other scenes are easy and fall out in large chunks of words and scarcely need more from me than to be the one to write them down.

I allow some distractions while I work. I respond to texts and messages within reason. If someone I know comes in, I'll stop to chat. I'll update Facebook, or tweet. I let myself research until I find what I need to continue with the story (and since my current novel involves a lot of history and phrases from other languages, I do a lot of quick googles in the middle of a thought). If possible, I do research on my iPhone to ensure I don't fall into a information hole. But if I do get sucked in, it happens. I just pull myself out and write more.

I do my best to not stress about these kinds of things, the interruptions and blips, and to trust myself. I'm a writer, I am writing, and as long as that keeps happening, I don't worry much over the small things like how much or little I can use from my day's work. It's all building the shape of what I want, each day getting closer.

Best fortune cookie ever.

There is one thing I never let myself do: I don't look up writing advice in my writing time. Its better to have a big sloppy rough draft done than have wasted another hour or day reading about how to do it. If I need encouragement, I'll look for it later. Writing time is for writing. Period.

If I get stuck, I switch tasks, or stare out the window more, or just muscle through it and write bad, awful, terrible prose.

Some days I leave cranky and irritated with how it went, other days I feel empowered and ready to take on the next step. Sometimes it's like I'm lost in a fog with no compass and an inner ear problem, other times I can see the sprawl of my plot like a view from space.

But my day is always better if I've had time to write.

This is all how the process goes – when there is a process. I strive to never be chained to one way of doing things, but to be fluid with life – there isn't always a coffee shop or desk nearby when I need one.

I've been known to write some of my best stuff curled on irowboat's sofa while he played Arkham City or Tomb Raider next to me. I've been known to whip out my pen at parties, and to seek out corners in bars to get some notes down.

It all boils down to this gem of advice:

If you've come all this way with me, awesome and congratulations.

Now go write something with your own process, and don't give mine another thought.

 

Distance, where I’ve been, and getting personal

Shadows at the tide pools.

Forgive me for rambling, I'm rusty at this.

I've been away. Away from the blog, away from home, from myself, even from writing.

I needed a vacation.

Irowboat's birthday is in April, and we decided to celebrate with a road trip in my new car to California – traveling to San Francisco and down the coast to Los Angeles, finally ending in San Diego for a few nights before heading home. It was a chance to see friends (including a visit with the fabulous people of The Office of Letters and Light), to eat marvelous food, stare at gorgeous coastlines, and to research some locations for The Novel.

We had an amazing time. There were long walks, speakeasies, The Golden Gate Bridge, winding roads with no cell phone reception, tide pools, ghosts in hotels, caves used by smugglers and pirates of yesteryear, beaches at sunset, books by Douglas Adams on the car stereo, time with each other. And, of course, amazing friends, new, old, and in-between.

There was a day spent glued to television and twitter when bombs went off in Boston, the surreal contrast of our Great Vacation against the horror and fear of the news.

There was an impromptu stop at Monterey Bay Aquarium, hunts for clam chowder on the coast, adventure.

I barely wrote a word.

It gave me distance, this trip. It gave me time in air thick with history and wonder, time in the places my characters know and love and remember. Time away from myself and who I'm used to being.

That distance gave me the chance for all this writing, all this dreaming to change me, and I've returned different. I'm new, born into myself from the new reality of writing, wanting to write, afraid and excited by all I have to learn.

I can't help but think back to last year at this time. I was frightened, troubled that I might not make it. My insecurities lashed at me like tide on sharp rocks, catching me up in waves I thought might drown me. I knew I would never be the same – I could feel it as I wrote myself real. I've been feeling the changes in me, feeling the strain between who I was and who I am yet to be.

This trip, this distance from my everyday, has broken the bond with the past. I'm floating free. I don't know how to do anything anymore, not like I used to. I don't remember how to blog or to write, I have piles of emails to reply to and comments to answer and things I want to write and share here and elsewhere. And a novel to do.

I don't know where to begin. Not even a little. So I begin here, with you.

What is clear to me is that I'm ready to more myself. Here, elsewhere, anywhere. I can feel it, the desire to hold things back. I've given in too often, and fallen silent instead of saying what I wanted to say. But the time for that is over.

Now it's time to get more real, and more serious. Time to do What I Never Thought I Would.

I'm ready for this, whatever this is. I'm ready.

 

Camp NaNoWriMo. Are you in?

Obligatory crocus spring image

Happy spring!

Before I get too deep in my own thoughts, go sign up for Camp NaNoWriMo. I'll wait.

Yes, you do have time. Camp lets you set your own word count goal, so no excuses. Go sign up.

Because, writers, it's time to bloom again.

It's been a long winter, and now the world is creaking out of hibernation, and I, too, am stretching myself out into the sun after composting the last of winter's lessons into my flesh.

It doesn't matter what we have done before, what last year did or did not hold for our writing.

Accomplishment or failure, we can begin again, with no regard for the past. We can creak our rusted fingers into typing shape, wrench our minds from anxiety of swim suits and middle squishiness, and focus on what matters to us.

The page, the story, the word, the chat rooms, the creativity.

Time to bloom, time to let the words sprout from the gray covering of the old life. Time to write, and write with the joyous abandon of not caring about anything else than how many words an fit into thirty days (or 27 of you start today, like I am).

Camp NaNoWriMo. Are you in? I am.

 

Month Twelve Reflections: Write What You Write

We hear about how zombies are over and how fairy tales are in, we hear about agents and we worry about if we can one day sell the thing we have scarcely typed five paragraphs of.

We ought never end a sentence with the word of. Or to. Or with.

We think we should write science fiction because smart people do that, or we should give up on literary fiction because vampires are where the money is (even though some writing magazine just told us the vampire craze is dead – haha dead, get it?), and what if that isn't where the money is and everyone is still stuck on serial killers and zombies after all?

But young adult is where the real market is, right? We should take a class on that, we should join a writing forum, we should have a writing group, except writing groups are bad for originality, or is that reading?

We should not read while we write because it will influence us, or was that we should read as much as we can while we write so we stay fresh?

We should never write cliches, we should only write things that have not been done, we should give up and write whatever, we should cut our teeth on fan fic and not worry about all that pesky character development. Maybe we should skip the publisher for that novel we haven't written yet and go straight to kickstarter, and maybe if we just read the latest magazine article on “5 Sure-Fire Ways to END Writer's Block NOW!” we can finally get started…

Stop

Just stop for a minute.

We are all here because we are writers, we want to be writers, or artists, or creatives. We have a need to express things that are within us, sometimes buried deep from years of shoulds and should nots, or just beneath the surface and waiting to be discovered.

Sometimes they lay like seashells in the sand and beg us to pick them up and hold them, smooth and cold like porcelain, to our ears, and listen.

We will never get to what is inside by reaching for what is outside. We will never be fulfilled as writers, never find that peace we write to seek, if we listen only to the bustle of the world going by, and not the seashell in our hands.

We must write what we write. We must come to the page, the canvas, the world as we are, and no one else. We must dive into our obsessions and burn through them, write into them, explore every unflattering angle and beautiful crevice of the things we cannot stop thinking about.

Whether it is cliche or obscure, if we do it honestly, we will offer the world what we are here to offer. And when we let go and admit to who we really are, the art is a little freer to make, the blocks not so blocked, the time not so long before we can feel the idea giving way and letting us slide into the heart of things.

And if the waves come and take a seashell away, wipe out what brilliant idea we had, it is easier to find another one just as brilliant, just as fine, because we know what to look for.

It does not always come easy.

When I began this year, I thought I was a science fiction writer. I had dabbled with all sorts of things, from some hard boiled crime to short stories dealing with Christian mythology, and of course, my beloved science fiction I thought I was meant to do.

I thought I knew what I wrote.

But what poured out was not expected: vampires, immortals, fairy tales and black magic, a tower that only stands because of the blood poured at it's feet, enchanted swords, underground owl men who tell your fortune in the bones of their pellets, exiled fairies, greek myths and conspiracies, and even more vampires.

I clung on for dear life as I wrote on and on, things I never dreamed I could imagine, anyone could imagine.

I can see the struggle in my early drafts, the fighting with myself, trying to steer the story to normal, all thrown out when the word count was too low, and I had to face myself as I am. I started many months with the hopes that maybe this time I would find sanity, the previous bloodbath of a novel was a fluke, but I was wrong.

I know better now, and I am a better writer. I look forward to what darkness lays before me, what evil deeds will await, what fairy tale I can twist.

I write what I write, it's just easier that way.

Write what you write, live as you live, let the rules that work for you find you.

And spend that money you save on writing magazines on a good pen, or some chocolate, or wine. Whatever makes you happy.

 

Twelve Down, One to Go! with looking forward….

Two novels in November; 100,000 words. 600,000 words since January.

It has been over a year since I decided to write a novel a month for 2012.

And it's hard to believe that it is almost over.

Honestly, I expected to feel more relief than this as the end drew near, as the hurdle of two novels in a month passed and I could see that proverbial light at the end of the wordy tunnel.

But oddly, I am not, not entirely. I am feeling a little wistful, a little melancholy that this is my last month of this marvelous and hard and awesome and hard year. I have met so many amazing people both in person and online, I got to go Write Dangerously, I got to blog for the OLL, I have discovered so much about myself and I have finally put writing as the priority in my life.

To think that this time last year, I had never done more online than to post a few little essays to my personal blog. I never wrote regularly, always trying to squeeze in an hour or two at a coffee shop to jot down ideas in a journal or on my old bulky laptop. And I never, ever, finished anything.

I'm close to really being a writer; I can feel it.

Wanting to be a writer sung me to sleep and woke me up and chased me down in the silence of my car as I drove home at night, scenes and characters rising to me unbidden, like a waking dream whispering that I needed to be doing something else with my life. Reading books I loved by other people hit me like an icicle in the chest, that yarning to do it, to feel the weight of my book, heavy with the ink of my words in my hand one day.

I still wonder what the pages of my first book will smell like; will they be sweet and musty, or sharp with shiny white pages? And for the first time, I actually think I will get to find out one day.

I am making plans for the future. Between here and then is one more novel, and a ton of catching up, a wedding to go to, New Years in New Orleans with irowboat, and many adventures to have between. But I am making plans to be the writer I am becoming. I will enter contests and edit my novels and apply to Clarion West.

And I'm going to keep this blog going for as long as you guys will have me.

But for now, right now, what I really want is for everyone reading this to feel how I am right now someday. I want all of you, no matter who you are or what your passions are, to feel the solidity of accomplishment, the fatigue of perseverance, and the realization that one day you will succeed because you know how, you have learned how, and you keep learning how.

I blog not just for myself, but because I want to use what I am doing to inspire. Nothing makes me happier than when someone tells me they are going to try writing a book because of me, or that they have decided to go back to school, or travel, or whatever. We can make each other better by doing what we love, and wanting others do the same.

I believe that all of us have something that we cannot keep ourselves from doing, whether it's the drive to feed people, to make things, to serve tea, or to catalogue books. Our job is to find whatever it is we can't not do, and to do it, and to be happy doing it.

So whatever it is, whoever you are or wherever you are starting from: this is your time. Think of what you want to do, it need not be so bold as my goal, but bold is my favorite way to be. Just think, feel out what part of your story is ready to be told.

And, in January, start.

Last November, I decided to give myself a year of the life I thought I wanted. I decided it was time to begin. I was so frightened and timid and unsure, but I did it; I started and I kept going and now, I am 50,000 words from triumph. It's an incredible feeling, and it has been the best year of my life so far.

I want that for all of you.

So tell me, what do you want to give yourself a year to do?

 

Guest Post: Your character may be a mugger if…

Written by irowboat

 

I was going to respond this comment from dawnstarpony, but it ran considerably long, and PartlyPixie made me turn it into a post. dawnstarpony asked:

Do you consider character planning/-izing/character personality sheets as outlining and wasting time?

I've encountered two general populations of writers when it comes to characters:

  • Those who are caught off-guard and mugged by their characters in a dark alley, who wake up in cold sweats, imagining that the character is watching them from every shadow, scheming to take their plot to terrible, undreamt places;
  • And those who are portrait photographers, casting the right character to tell the desired story, supplying props, dressing the set, controlling the lighting, and posing the character.

Neither of these are The Right Way™,but nor are they incorrect, for just as a photographer can still take a blurry photo even given the best circumstances and nearly unlimited control, those that are mugged can endlessly describe—in searingly vivid detail—the one or two distinguishing features they were able to make out in the dimmest of starlight and sodium-arc shadows.

There is promising research into the possibility of a third population, which has not yet been granted an official registration from the Writer Taxonomy Bureau; some argue it is simply a hybrid or mutant population and may be sterile. This population is the fashion photographer, who shares attributes of the two other populations: they control the lighting, provide props, cast the character, and provide minimal direction, but have little (or no) control of how the character actually interacts with the setting and props.

With a little luck (and the experience of the photographer), mediocre settings, marginal props, poor lighting, or the occasional blurry shot, the character can work the camera – producing unexpected and wonderful results that could never have been planned. Moments often noticed only when everything is done and examined in review.

Snapshots of serendipity.

 

Unstuck: What to Write When You Don’t Know What to Write – Retell a Story

Retell a fairy tale.

When I was a little girl, we had an in-wall space heater in the basement rec room, the kind I've only seen in cheap hotels, but I am sure that the original decorators thought it was the height of interior design.

Anyway, in the winter, my dad and I would pile blankets next to that space heater and turn it on, and pretend it was a fire, and we were camping. We'd open up bags of marshmallows and cinnamon bears, and my dad would tell me stories.

I always requested some fairy tale or another.

My dad is a patient man, and he always complied. Of course, it gets old just telling the same stories over and over, (or maybe because they had me a little late and is memory was slipping… love you, Dad!) he never told me the same version of any story twice. Robin Hood had many impromptu adventures, Little Red Riding Hood was a mugger out to rob the wolf blind, and the Seven Dwarves once ran a speakeasy.

The stories were never the same. As far as I'm concerned, my father is a master story teller.

So, when our creativity is on the fritz and the stories aren't flowing, when ideas for NaNoWriMo are thin, when we just need to feel fiction happening.

Tell a fairy tale.

Tell it straight, with castles and fairy godmothers. Tell it crooked, with black magic and twisted endings. Tell it modern with no magic, where Jack climbs the corporate beanstalk, or sleeping beauty is a woman in witness protection until her boyfriend finds her.

Don't be afraid of not being original. Fairy tales are important, they are myths that bind us all together as a culture, the stories we cannot get enough of. Ask any hundred people to tell you the story of Cinderella, you will hear one hundred ways of telling it.

We are none of us original, and all of us unique.

Hell, Robin McKinley retold Beauty and the Beast twice. Twice. And the two novels might as well be written by two very different authors.

Let's be inspired by this.

When we're stuck for ideas, when we feel like frauds, when we simply can't pass through the static – no matter how many times we describe our laundry pile, when we just need a good idea to roll with through NaNo, and we simply want to write without worrying about plot, we can turn to the stories we have lived telling since childhood.

Try it; rewrite a fairy tale, or a folk tale, or a myth. Create a greater intimacy with the stories we only thought we knew.

You'll be amazed at just how original the same old songs can be.

Are You Actually Writing?

Things that are not actually writing:

  • Looking for that tab you had open as reference material for a blog entry
  • Outlining
  • Complaining about not writing
  • Practicing your quick-draw technique in case of a duel
  • Sharpening your samurai sword
  • Slimming down your collection of 5,000 fonts
  • Tweeting
  • Facebooking
  • Searching the web to see of other people have the same problem as you
  • Replying to blogs saying “OMG I thought I was the only one with this problem!”
  • Replying to other comments with solutions you think you have conjured for the problem
  • Creating more problems now that you've solved one
  • Outlining (yes, it is worth saying twice)
  • Working on your chewing gum collection
  • Reenacting Firefly scenes with your Lego collection
  • Chatting online with friends and pretending to be writing because you have a word processor open the background
  • Shopping for apps
  • Shopping for gadgets to put apps on
  • Juggling small poodles
  • Obsessing about [RANDOM BODY PART]
  • Obsessing about [RANDOM HOT GUY/GIRL]
  • Reorganizing your throwing star collection
  • Gluing your furniture to the ceiling
  • Outlining, for gods sakes – stop it
  • Making ice cream statues
  • Bitching about writers block on your blog (if you can blog, you are not that blocked)
  • Complaining over beers you should be writing. When you could be writing.
  • Laundry
  • Research of any kind
  • Hunting wabbits
  • Pressing the backspace key
  • Wondering if you are original enough (hint: no one is, but write anyway)
  • And most of all… anything that looks like writing that is not actually contributing to your word count, regardless of how beneficial or essential it is and/or might be to the other aspects of your life

 

Things that are actually writing:

  • Writing

 

Special thanks to irowboat for his snark and insight.

 

You tell me: What Makes You Stuck?

Thanks to dawnstarpony, I have been ruminating a great deal on stuckness (a word I will need to teach my iPad, because I will be using it a lot), and the unsticking and how we get stuck.

And as a result, I hope to have a very good deal of posts about writing and getting stuck, so if anyone wants to help, please let me knew how you get stuck. What stops you from writing? What makes it hard to continue? Is it the need to start something new, fear of the unknown, fear of never getting published?

Iz dropped my pen.

Is it just space and time, or the devils in your head?

What about the devils outside your head? Does anyone (even and especially other writers) feed you reasons to not write?

What stops you?

What makes you feel like you're a kitten stuck in a very tall tree? Or a small one?

I really want to know, because I have discovered that being stuck happens all the time and for all kinds of reasons. And I want to know what others are dealing with, so my posts are more apt and helpful.

Bring me your fatigue and your unease, your huddled half-finished stories and tales of woe. Bring me your growing pains and pains in the neck and the ex who always calls right when you're really getting somewhere with your writing time (how do they always know?!).

I want to hear all of your stuckitude problems, and I shall see what I can do to make them better, or at the very least convince you to write anyway.

Because in the end, every solution comes back to just writing, no matter what.

 

Leaning into Fear

I will have the promised post on getting and pushing past being stuck soon. But today, I want to talk about something else.

Leaning into the fear.

This year, I have unearthed more about myself than I knew was there to discover. As I have expressed before, writing this hard and fast doesn't leave any room for me to hide from myself. The more I write, even when my stories are superficial, who I am shows up in the characters, the plots, the obstacles. It's like navigating a mine field made of all the lies I've told myself about who I am.

Except in this mine field, the one made of myself and my hidden pieces, the more things I blow up, the better.

To write well, to write myself real, to get past the things that stop me from writing, to become the person I want to be, I have to step on as many mines as I can. I have to lean into the fear, to walk where I dare not, and to find the places I do not want to go.

I keep thinking: I didn't read this in my books about writing. Am I insane? Am I the only one? Natalie Goldberg touches on the idea a little in her ideas of writing practice. She warned me a little. But it is easy to disregard her meditative writing practice in the face of so many others, who only discuss how to plot and create story and get published and above all avoid passive voice.

It's easy to feel betrayed, because they never warn you about this when you say you want to write fiction. They never tell you that you may meet yourself, and that it probably will be less than pretty. They don't tell you how to stick with it and move through the terror of discovery.

Yet, every month, I face the same thing. I find the place my story is headed and I feel that sick, cold terror. My writing slows down, I feel lost, abandoned, deserted. I don't want to blog, in fact, I don't want to exist. I'm too messed up to write, let alone to live — or so the frightened parts of me believe. I cry a lot, I spend too much of irowboat's time making him listen to my artistic angst before he tells me to shut up and write.

And every month, I find a way to push through. I give in and lean toward the places I most fear and find that it wasn't as frightening inside the terrible secrets as it was standing on the precipice. The words come, I forget to care if they suck or not, I just want to be done.

Each month, it is the same. Each month I know for certain that I cannot go on, that I am too frightened, too insecure. As soon as I realize that my job is to blow myself up over and over on the parts of me I have burried, I can move on.

It can even be fun, once the screaming stops.

And yet, I still feel unprepared for just how difficult it is. I have to re-learn every time that fear is my friend. The places I am frightened of writing into are the very places that can set me free. If I will only go there.

This month, it has been very, very hard to go there.

So I am writing this as a reminder to myself: lean into the fear. Lean in and find that one thing I don't want to know, the one thing I just can't handle. Write it; write it tired and fast and frightened. Cry, freak out, have a drink, laugh, do whatever it takes to hold on and keep with it. Whatever it takes to keep writing.

Because nothing, no amount of fear or truth or discomfort or sleepless nights, nothing is worse than not writing.

 

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